above the beach, beautiful, urban, haunted, always available but not so available, harsh but not that harsh, skinned knees, missing teeth, not so much about where you went but how you got there, wearing a hole in your trainers, wearing a hole in your tiny concrete heart, the smell of the city after the rain, the sound j.g. ballard used to make when he tripped on a shoelace, pie and eels, nine-inch heels, eureka stockade, the feeling of gravel under your blistered feet, hotel-motel-holiday-inn, in-out-in-out-shake-it-all-about, you don’t like us we don’t care